hi everyone.... boring lo.

....he told me that " you're the best thing I've ever sacrificed.."

actualy my heart has been broken since few months ago. until now, i find it hard to patch up the pieces.. ugh...

everything seems to collapse after the break up...it was a mistake to have my whole world revolves around it..now that the rship is gone, i find a big part of myself is gone..

i dont know what to do anymore..i tried to think positively, but every now and then those memories came back..bad and good..sigh. Im such a weakling.

i think our relationship is some sort of friend but dont feel like friend.

After breaking up, he proposed to me to stay as close friends. But I find it hard to let go..thats when things get complicated and another argument broke out. I think it was a mistake for us to straight away become friends after the break up. Should have just let things cool off for a few months. Now its too late already. He thinks that for us to be friends, its kind of impossible....

I find it hard to let it go because he's not one of those bad guys or jerks..he's nice. If only i can turn back time, I would have stayed as friends with him...At least we wont be enemies or whatever...

hey ppl..i think among u guys..im one of the stupidest person..maybe even on earth.. when i broke up, i became totally depressed. I was not a strong person to begin with..n that time I started working. Not to mention, workload n the ppl around me was not helping..so I gave up my job..I even cried at my work - in front of everyone. UGH.. im so embarassed of myself.

They say work helps to heal me.but its making me worse :/ Now i kinda regret I did tat..But during that time, my emotions were overpowering..instead of using my brain n head to think. Serve me right though..

You're referring to me right?

Now I'm quite ok already, although not that stable yet. I think I'm getting better, but I find myself isolating myself from the world and people..Im ashamed to be what I am now..something like Im scared to show myself to the world. I lost my confidence in myself too. At the moment, Im just trying to find a suitable job..and I hope this time I will be able to focus 100% in my work.. I cant change the past anymore