I have problems of keep contacting my ex. He initiated break up and gave reason "He lost interest on me" and also said he has this problem with girls after his first ex incident. He tends to play even though he said he wanna a stable relationship. I know his past with his gfs but I thought I could change him but I was naive or should I say, I'm too afraid to fully commit in the relationship. I dunno what will happen if I commit too much and the ending is a break up, I'm just scare so I too did not serious.

I told him we could still be friend and he's fine with it but everyday I have this urge to msn him but never because it'll someday appear annoying. I didn't want that so I stop myself from msn/sms/call him. But I really did miss him a lot. Whatever I am doing now, I'll imagine him and I doing it together. An illusion you may call it. Before I slept and the seconds I awake, I'll think of him. I kept on having memories of us flashing in my brain, I wanna remove it and also wanna cherish it because only he could give me those memories and feelings, it would be a waste to forget it.

I really do wanna stop this but he'd given me a memory that is unforgettable and the way he broke up with me, everything is soooo irony. I miss him so much. I really do. But, how can I stop missing him?? hanging out with friends, I did. Working?? I worked somewhere 15mins from his college and stayed in a condo 2 blocks away from his house(it's everyday routine because my boss will fetch me).

To give myself time and let it go?? Sorry, could you explain more

But I did stop contacting him because if I don't do so, it'll appear annoying someday. Just I can't stop thinking about him